Do you know that feeling where you’re just doubting yourself? It’s when you know you got everything planned and you understand exactly how you want something done and you know how to do it. Yet… you’re scared. Scared that everything you’ve prepared for would go to waste. Maybe your execution of the plan will go horribly. A little problem could turn into something that delays everything you were supposed to do. Maybe someone you needed to come on that day for your plan to work leaves you hanging. This is what I’m feeling right now.
It’s not a loud alarm that plays in my head. It’s a soft sound. I don’t hear it when I’m out and about but when I’m not busy, I hear it. Even now as I am typing this.
This plan I’m doing is for my short film. It’s an individual project. I know exactly how I want to shoot every scene, how every character moves, and what schedule to follow. I even imagine everything that would happen on the days that I will do my shooting yet… I’m scared.